Change: These are the thoughts that have been staying with me and as the saying goes ‘something’s got to give.’
Few things have changed in the last few years. Feeling still linger, pain is never far away, happiness has been hit or miss and creativity has hit a two year low.
So I think of change. This change needs to start with my attitude. My general out look on life is bleak. I like happy and shiny, but tend to look at the down side of things. If I conquer this goal other things will follow.
Yet how do I tackle such a challenge? How do I become more positive? Or more to the point: how do I become less negative? I would like to train myself to think happier thoughts. Now that I have noticed that the first thought to pop into my head is almost ways something wrong, I would like to make that change. If it is at all possible.
I must think it is possible and cheer the fuck up. I no longer want to be the person people expect me to be.
